I so hate slapping my own people into the face, but even I cant take more than this right now.
Ever since i hit 100 I went to any Tara*event* I could.
NO I am not a greedy lootwh*re, I love fights, the harder and longer the better. I LOVE raids and this is what this post is about.
The last few weeks, I have seen the same thing happen 99 % of the time. Omni lost.
I didnt really care TOO much about it, bad luck, things went bad, shi-t happens..
BUT yesterday and even today shocked me.
Tara was up after patch, Omni and Clan were there in about the same force little fights here, little ones there, at the end we were all beating on Tara.
I see people die left and right of me and in the same moment I see THOSE people leave the tara chats never to return. I was pretty much the last woman standing from my side and was embarrassed to see my folks bail out - I walked up to Tara and started beating on her myself ( lol not that I had the slightest chance, but at least now I can say I TRIED )
Clan wiped aswell and had to reform their forces. And now it gets nasty: Omni bailed out completely gridded and walked out. Leaving a almost dead Tara and rezzing Clan squad the field with NO more interfering. Oh and leaving this stunned and ashamed doc behind aswell.
Today: Server going down for an hour, I rush over to Camelot only to see this : 12 Clan and 1 Omni camping out in Camelot. Clans look at me and start laughing - nice feeling really! I tell you.
EDIT: I just logged in after serverdown, 3 Omni incl. me and rest clanners - already done with tara on the way to another target.
Umm yay ?!
Now I ask myself: Where is Omnis pride, where is Omnis power, are we too well fed to even move our lazy butts there and fight ?
Are we to stuffed with treasures to see that we get weaker every minute ?
And I ask myself, why the heck am I fighting for someone who isnt able to stand and fight for his/her/itself ?
Why am I trying to be the best doc I can be, if there is no way to show it, other than mission after mission after mission ?
Are we simply giving up ?
I for one can say I am NOT giving up !
*hopes there is someone else out there thinking the way she is*