"Something I can tell you... She doesn't hate you."
Had he been right in letting her know?... He couldn't tell. he honestly couldn't tell, and it any case, it was now too late. Maybe it'd divert her hatred from Jen a little - divert it, direct it on him instead, balanced by the sheer curiosity he could sense in her. hating him, yet not willing to get rid of her... new 'guinea pig', in some way. Maybe it would simply do no good, or do nothing. Of course... now her confusion was total, making a mental smirk arise in his thoughts. If she thought about Jen's feelings, she wasn't thinking about him, about what he was, about his reason to exist. Keeping her on the edge of confusion... that was something interesting. Interesting, and somewhat cruelly exciting. He hadn't really appreciated her comment about his love for Jen, after all; now it was time to caach her off-balance again. Neither him nor Jen deserved such contempt, such acrid comments. She hadn't any right to doubt of his love for Jen!...
There was this blank look on Elicia's face again, when she simply stared at him and let out a flat "Then what?"; but he had very well noticed how her hand had suddenly frozen, holding her cup of coffee mid-way from her mouth, her fingers clutching very hard at the cup as if not to shake.
"Then? Don't you understand yet?" he arched an eyebrow, staring back, wondering by which miracle his calm wasn't itself shattered yet.
"Not when you speak in code, Heiji", was her answer, and he got confirmation in this very moment that she wasn't as much at ease as she pretended to be, that his words, all his words since the beginning of their meeting, were still taunting her. That she hated the way he was toying with her. That he had aimed right. She briefly raised a hand to her comm unit, as a discrete beeping signal was warning her about an incoming transmission, and he heard her answer: "Yes?...No...just relaxing in Reets... I'd rather not...need some time alone. Will call you later, ok?"
He simply shook the head, not knowing whether to smirk again or to be saddened by her attitude. The short call had given her time to regain her composure, maybe to think even more about what he had said. She was surprised, surprised and confused, he could see it behind the mask. "Sorry about that", she said, though she wasn't really sorry - why should she, it was only this weird, wicked, mad good old Heiji she was talking to, after all. "No... you don't understand. I can see it", he retorted, very well decided not to allow her to escape through another subject.
"Then educate me!" There it was. Exasperation. Slight, yet growing nervousness again. She wanted, she needed to know, despite her uncaring whereabouts. Heiji stared at her with a saddened and patient look this time, as if he was trying to explain a very important matter to a young child, searching for the right words to use to express what was to him an evidence, and should have been one to her too. "O nee-chan. She's the only one... holding my hand."
Taking her completely off-guard, indeed. The mask dropped in the fraction of a second, leaving room to a baffled expression, and to an utter inability to speak. Another point for him, though this wasn't as amusing as he'd have thought. How long did he need to explain? How long before she truly understood... understood what was hurting him so much, also. The fact that Jen simply couldn't hate the Clanner woman. Not this one. He was very aware to whom her only hate laid, of course; that she simply didn't want more hate in her life, that it was already hard enough this way. "She knew from the start that retaliation would come", the dead Fixer absently went on, as if recalling an old yet still painful memory. " She knew it. And she still... doesn't hate you. I told you. I did a promise to her."
"...She's holding you back. She is protecting me from you..." Elicia finally stated, blinking, as if she hadn't completely grasped all the meaning of his words, yet was trying hard to. He let a bitter smile come to his lips: "That's where all the irony lies, Elicia-chan. Isn't it?" She had to agree on this. She did, actually.
He gave a sudden harsh laugh, again. So much irony in this situation."Revenge's useless. That's what she said." Can you believe it, o nee-chan? When you and your friends almost managed to shatter her persona into tiny shards... can you believe it?
But Wahsko was still focused on his words. Still trying to understand. "And if she freed you from your promise?"
"If she frees me, then I'll kill you."